I wish I could say that all is quiet on the front lines ;), but seems like it is one thing after the other. I wasn't two words into this post before a pump started beeping at me!
I haven't had the heart to write as much as I was in past months, usually I use my journal a lot more. A lot of my time goes to resting in between phone calls, my daily cares, and emailing my doctors and nurses. I'm so grateful to my team! Unfortunately no matter how much I rest, I don't feel like I'm making improvements, but am actually regressing right now. I often return to my previous baseline and I am keeping the faith that this will be the case. But it doesn't change the fact that it has been a challenging month, and it's natural for me to wonder.
On the positive side, I have started my first college class. I have been feeling determined to test the waters since graduating high school and am delighted that I'm finally able to. There was never going to be a particularly good time to start; I'm always going to have good and bad days, weeks, and months. It did seem to be the right time though and I know God will walk me through it like He does everything else, from procedures to needle changes to tests.
1 Corinthians 10:31 (NKJV) "Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God."
I had a bit of an adventure earlier in the month that was such a blessing to me, albeit probably part of the reason why I'm so wiped out now. I was asked to speak at a church a dear friend of mine pastors - he is like a father to me. So a former teacher and friend of mine drove us out so we could spend the weekend with him and his family, something we've wanted to do for ages. It was an incredible blessing to see them and meet their church family, they are just so special! Giving my testimony was a great experience and I'm so grateful.
I also milked a cow and bottled fed a calf. Right up my alley.
Isn't that little guy cute? I have loved getting to go out and do some fun things lately. I'm hoping to get to go back to visit Francine soon, it's good to have things to look forward to and push myself even if in the long run it does contribute to me feeling worse. I'm so glad that my specialists don't stop me from doing things I want to do despite that risk.
Well I need to go and prep my TPN! Yum!
Goodnight,
M
